Live for my life.

I'm actually a very "strong" girl. I tried all my best to makes everyone happy even though I am not happy. I don't cry in front of people unless I really can't hold my tears. Usually I don't cry for my personal case. I mean if I have friends problem, I will probably try to talk to someone or I'll just be emotional by staying myself in the room with classical music played.

I am afraif of some thing which I have to admit it. I hate people volume up their voice, I'll cry without hesitation. Don't ask me why, I wanted to know it too. I'll try to control. I am a very stingy person who cares my pride more than anything. I hate people humiliated me in front of stranger or friends. I hate liars, I hate being alone, I hate being ignored or abandoned. I love friendly people, I love open minded people, I love people who are willing to accept the bad of you and still stay right by your side. I hate people who gossips about me obviously everyone hates it.

Good thing about me ? I will be honest for whatever I've done. Because I met a psychology lecturer in college who taught me to be honest. In the end of the day, loser get nothing besides being expelled by others. Please remember if you are honest, you are always the winner. At least you don't need to twist your mind and scratch your head on what lies you should be prepare and telling later. Agree ? Just face the fact. Come on, people makes mistakes. If you don't,  I salute you much. *no*

God are fair right ? God created you to be a pretty lady with a bad behaviour and attitude.  Or maybe an ugly guy with a smart brain and nice personality ? Idk. Just an example dey. :3 wookay, childish thinking should be wipe off. I wanna be a more matured thinking person but not playful. I don't know how many things I've done previously and it's hurting my friends pride. I am sorry. Days until I grew up, I knew that I should make some changes on myself. I know my friends always forgive for what I've done.  Thanks for that. Friends are the one who are willing to stay right besides you when you're ups or downs. I agreed the part of it. Thanks buddies !

I should say that there are also kinda friends that only using you. For example ? Staying right by your side when only they needed you . After that, they'll totally forget you like you never existed in this world. Sometimes there are also friends who asked you for a party or hang over but they don't talk to you but abandoned you. What's the point inviting if you're not sincere ? Or you'll scare they comments the words "bojio" ? Damn. Just a word. Besides, friends that only treat their opposite sex better than same sex. Such as, girls treat boys better than girls treat girls ? Haha. Or they know what you want but just pretending like "mind your own business". Who cares ? Friends that are so obsessed with branded stuff which we so called brand conscious ? Rich friends looked down on the poor one ? Smart friends looked down on the stupid one ? The busy body one ? The whatever bt got something going on their mind one ? Just infinity kinda friends on earth.

If we're not strong or brave enough to face that these people are actually existed and already be a part of your life,how can you peacefully live v your life happily ? I mean with the real laughter obviously. Not fake. I always tell myself, just be who I am. Nobody is is going to judge you,  who are they ? Take care of yourself before you take care of the others. Also, never forget to cares what others think okay ? I mean, still friends. If you are too selfish to just care of your own feeling then don't blame the others for treated you the same way ? Idk. Just saying.

Your life, you decide. To live better ? Be honest. English proverbs used to said "honesty is the best policy." Right ? Whatever, just don't be fake. :3