Define yourself.

I feel like writing this after the 3 hour talk with my housemates, Mindy. Actually, by just talking to one of your friend, you'll actually know more about yourself. Sometimes, you might think you do something necessarily and you were right. But in fact, it is not. It's not something you can define it by yourself. You should also listen to what people think of you. Life seems so be a little bit miserable because I am the kind of stubborn person and I used to just listen to myself and don't care about the others. Similar like I live in my own world people. So I call myself childish & selfish. The good thing about me is I love meeting new people and I am very friendly. Also, I forgive and forget very easily. You may pissed me off, challenge my patient limit. I may get mad and cry then write bad stuff about you on "social networking site". But then, after few hours, I'll forgive & forget everything. I don't expect people to have common thinking as I am because some people care and mind if I wrote something bad about them on my Facebook status. Everyone mad. To make myself clear, I write people on Facebook & Twitter but I don't write out their name. In twitter, YES I DO. I don't tell people I have a twitter account or ask people to follow me because my twitter is my privacy,my feeling,my place to express myself through words. I spam when I am mad, but who cares ? Even If you spam a single words on Twitter, no one cares. You get what I mean ? My twitter only open for the people I know. I lock my twitter account.

I want to say sorry and apologize. My friend ask me, why don't you face the people If they make you mad or whatever ? Why must you post on Facebook and let all your thousand friends see them ? I stay silent for a while. Then I replied, I am the kind of person where I am good at writing to express my own feeling. If you want me to face that particular person and tell out what I feel towards them, I am sorry to say that I will definitely LOSE and nothing will be solved at the end of the day. For me, not every words I can tell. If you want me to write, I can give you more than a paragraph long If I am really mad at you. I don't expect people to understand me because I am this kind of person. Different people have different thinking. For the people I write you on my Facebook status before previously, I am here to apologize. I am sorry Eric. I am sorry Eunice. I am sorry Anvale. I think the status I wrote about Eric one is the worst. Too many Vulgar words which that is also my first time to write a person on Facebook status.

Words to Eric,
I am sorry If I make you feel bad. I don't mind If you get mad of me because I wrote you on my Facebook status. You said you are kidding who knows I take it seriously. My mistake. I understand sometimes I am very stingy and act like a very childish person. I heard that you are moving to the other hostel next year. I hope you'll not forget all of us. Don't remember me, it's okay. Remember the others. Take Care. It's my pleasure for meeting you and be your friend once. Take Care.

Words to Eunice,
Hi, best sister. Recently, our group of friend had a small misunderstanding & quarrel. I am sorry I could not stand right by your side and change you to the person you used to be. I know you are facing a lot of ups and downs in your life. Sometimes, I really feel sad. The person I used to feel so thankful when I have you by my side are now far apart from me. You are always the one solving my problem and be my listener whenever I needed you. You are my first college friend. Remembered you bringing me meet all your friends and introduce me to everyone of them. We used to be the closest friend in college. But now, everything seems to have a little changes. Hey girl, please come back. We miss you. Let's EMO together okay ? :(

Words to Anvale,
Hi, sister. We have a little fight on our assignment. You say, my works is not that terrible and you don't believe I will give you that kind of work. You put much hope on me. You believe that I can always give you more quality work. Thank you for believing me. I hope you don't mind if I get a little pissed that time when you say that. I am not helping mindy. I just want to know what exactly the thing that make you want to check our work. You said you don't want our assignment mark to be low. You wanted to help. Kind of you. Thanks again. I appreciate you for doing so. Don't think that we abandoned you,please. You can talk to us whenever you want. We are always here for you. Let's be best sister again okay ? Let's have dinner,supper,movie,chiong K together again. Do you remember after our sem 1 sem break, we went RedBox. We said that is the highest day we've ever spent together with.

By looking at the photos and thinking how much laughter we've been together, I cry. Why everything changes so suddenly. I have to admit, while typing all this word on my blog, I cry. Does it mean that I really miss those moments ? Or I miss all of you already ? After the fight, friendship will be better. Please forgive me for being childish. I need all of you to come back. Sorry means nothing. But if you are willing to come back, I will be able to prove to you I changes something. I love you guys. :)