Mini Christmas Party.

Christmas comes a little bit earlier this year. Last night, Leticia and housemates organises a mini early Christmas party for all THE PURPLE HOUSE residents. I was surprisingly impressed by the party, they did a great job. They put effort in making everything perfect. Beautiful decoration, mouth-watering pizzas & snacks, awesome games. What more can I say? I do enjoy the party. Those games are really fun. I swear it's really really fun. The best Christmas party I've ever attended. *applause*

Although not everyone are able to attend the party due to upcoming finals, but for whoever people that show up, thank you for adding more colours into my life. It is indeed a nice day to relax before our hardcore finals. Happiness moments always ended so fast. After this semester ends, some of the housemates are going to leave as they are graduating. I seriously don't know how to express that feeling of reluctant. When can we meet again after leaving each other? *tears roll down*

However, It's my pleasure to meet all local and international housemates. FYI, I've been staying in THE PURPLE HOUSE for 2 years, which also mean I will be graduating soon too! To sum things up, in this 2 precious year, I met a lot of friends that came from different country and state. I'm so glad that they once walk into my life with warmest hello and leave me with a hardest goodbye. We will not forget the wonderful memories we once created together alright? *fly kisses*

Lastly, I would like to thanks to the organiser of this party. If it's not for them, I wouldn't have this awesome memories until I graduate. Word can't express how thankful am I to meet everyone that are staying in THE PURPLE HOUSE. As I never predicted that staying in THE PURPLE HOUSE will give me such unforgettable moments which I will never had if I choose to stay elsewhere.

**Oh right, the Christmas gift that I received for this year is to attend this early MINI CHRISTMAS party and interact with new people. :)

Friendship makes prosperity more brilliant, and lightens adversity by dividing and sharing it. -Cicero

Merry Christmas!!! All the best in upcoming finals!

Safe journey for those who are going back hometown after finals. :)

May God Bless everyone you.


Notes: *it's not for advertising purposes, but it's something that I experienced it myself.*

Goal of the day.

Today's goal : Eating alone in a restaurant.

Well I've always been wondering what's the feeling of eating alone in a restaurant. Now, I've done it and here are my thoughts about it. Well, it wasn't that bad actually. People might gives you creepy stares & says negative things on you. It doesn't really matter. What matter most is depending on how you make yourself comfortable in that lonely dining table. Are you gonna look around people who stares at you? Are you gonna be afraid? Are you gonna say "run, I can't stand it anymore?" 

Don't make yourself feel uncomfortable. The more thoughts u have in mind, the more uncomfortable you gonna be. Sometimes, even when you're eating with a bunch of friends, they are also staring at their phone after ordering their food, so what's the different? No one talks to you, all you have is you yourself and ur smartphone. Idk, maybe your friends don't? 

Hmmm, I think we probably get used to the life where friends are always our food partner. Have you ever thought when someday all of your friends are busy, they can't accompany you for your meal? Are you going to starve yourself in your room? Or are you going to cook some instant noodles or soup for meal? For me, best way is just "Dabao" which means take away. 

If you want me to do this again, "eating alone in a restaurant", I really won't do it again. I'd rather drink milo, biscuits, take away. I can't survive in a lonely place or lonely person. I hate being alone too. Anyway, at least I tried and experience myself of what's the feeling of eating alone. I'm quite happy cz at least now I'm still survive. Unfortunately to say, NO next time. I hate when no one talks to me. I will just want to talk to anyone next table to me. Cheers! :) 

How bout you? Have you ever experienced eating alone? Share me your thoughts! I challenge you. :) 

Happiest yet memorable Birthday.

Every year when it comes to my birthday, I don't expect much. I know when I expect something, but things don't goes beyond my imagination then I will just ended up being disappointed. I don't want to be disappointed or sad for my one year once birthday. For some people out there might have their own thoughts of birthday. Some might thinks birthday is nevertheless an ordinary day but unfortunately for me it's not.

Birthday is the day my mum suffered years ago;that day is where all that pain, that fresh blood, that tears my mum has overcome just to deliver me safely to this world. I don't think is an ordinary day. It's a day I should be thankful, a day I should remind myself that I'm no longer a secondary school children. This is my last teen years. I did nothing for my past 18 years of living. I feel like I've been wasting a lot of time and also a lot of things that I should be doing when I was young bt still i have not done any. Participating in different kind of activities, challenging myself, whatever. I've done nothing to make my parents be proud of me. Even I got grade 7 for my electone (organ). I literally gave up completing my last grade 8. What a waste. No, actually because that year I have SPM that's y I choose to stop and til now never get time to continue. There goes my very long nagging introduction. *peace*

That birthday cake you've seen earlier is my very first birthday cake of the day. This is from my fellow housemates of The Purple House 1. They surprise me at 12am. Well, here goes the plan they did for me. Young wen told me that they are going to celebrate my birthday at a mamak stall. Yes, I am that naive and usually I'm not that naive tho. Just the night before my birthday, I believe whatever she said. I know they are going to surprise me but I thought maybe they bring me to mamak stall and just someone surprise me with a cake something like that. I never know it's not. God knows, I GOT FOOL completely...

I took my bath at 11:30pm, usually I take 15min to complete my bath. Then like how I do always, I dry my hair in my room. Til around 11:55pm, young wen knock my room door. *its like what I've been thinking, like what I've thought, something was amiss* she talked to me, chill with me. Then, when the clock strikes 12am, here comes Anussa appear knocking my room door. I was like, okay come in. Anussa was so panicked, she keep repeatedly saying that "amelia, young wen I have something important to tell you, really important!!! Come with me." On that time, I don't even believe her. It's 12am. I knew what's going to happen. That's just a part of the plan. Anussa asked me and young wen to go down. In a sudden, I changed my mind. I thought maybe young wen is fooling around me. Maybe they are not going to surprise me at mamak stall but in lounge area. Then, my face was like *face palm* *again, no surprise*. Because everytime when it comes to birthday celebrations surprise,it must be at lounge. That's explain why I said *again, no surprise*. Okay, continue. I walk out from my room. And before I exit to level 1, there goes the candle & cakes with everyone of my housemates, ex-housemates, gathered here singing birthday song to me. At that particular moments, tears can't stop from falling down my cheeks. I was surprised. I thought some people might not join cz maybe we are no longer that close to each other. Still, thank you for joining. Thanks for planning, young wen. Everyone that involves, cooperating, thank you very much. To liangz & Xinhuan thanks for the birthday present. I never expected. A huge thank you from me. I'm touched. I'm thankful to my father God.

This is our group photos. Thank you guys & girls. Love all of you, thank you father God for giving me such an amazing bunch of housemates. I appreciate what I have. I treasure those memorable moments we've built together. From head to toe, thank you.

This is the present that liangz & Xinhuan gave me. A bottle of "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" candy. Thanks dude. 

Moving on with my 2nd session birthday celebrations with my fellow sisters. Well, they have a plan too. Cz I only have 1 class which is on 10am-12pm. Then I'm free. After class dismissed, Anvale ask me to go back home cz she said she is sleepy. So yeah, I spent my 12pm-4pm at home. Not even have breakfast/ lunch. I have instant mushrooms soup for lunch anyway. I'm so freaking sad. At 4pm, one of my housemate called me, asking me to open downstairs gate for her. So, I was like okay I went downstairs and I saw one of my sisters(but she didn't saw me). Not to mentioned. I act like I don't see her.  But to give them some hint that I see her, I pretend to stare at my phone and let them just see me standing there so that they will know I am there, they cnt come to my hostel now. Or else, no surprise. Okay, after letting my housemate in, yiqin and vivienne came my hostel. I was like, lol? They followed me to my room. Talking to me. Then in less than 3 min, my fellow sisters appeared in my room v cakes & singing happy birthday song. This is the plan. Then we went down lounge area to take some group photos and knife on cake session. Thank you sisters!!! Loves.

Thank you for the wallet. I promise to use it wisely and take good care of it. I will keep it safe & will not lost it. Because it's white, I will take extra care for not making this wallet dirty. 

Thanks raini, ningz, anvale, eunice, kheiiz, Andrew,  and also jin yang for sharing this birthday present. I'm more than just being thankful. I'm blessed.

Sisters are so busy nowadays, hoping that they get to release their stress. Hmm. Wishing u girls all the best. 

Moving on with my ex-housemates. They accompanied me for my birthday night. They had dinner with me and brought me to coffee bean for red velvet cake. Millions thank you for doing so. Oh ya, thanks leticia for joining us too. Loves you girls much. You will be thinking is just a meal and cake. But for me, is more than enough. They did not just make empty promises to have dinner with me, but they make it happened. Their sincere heart, makes me feel happy. Appreciate them much.  Thanks once again. 

My favorite food with best companion.

Thanks girls for this red velvet cake from coffee bean. Finally I've tasted red velvet cake. 

There ends my birthday. Wait just my birthday but not celebrations. Haha. Shall we move on? 

I went back malacca on 30th December, my bunch of monkey bros celebrated my lovely belated birthday with me and angeline. They are freaking funny, they refused to let us know what's their plan, what they are going to do up next and so on. So freaking mysterious. Angeline and I felt damn speechless that day. They went my house for gathering then bringing innocent angeline and I to machap. That's why I was wondering why I haven't reach my destination after this long drive. Duhhh. Eric kept repeating the same thing, "I'm going to sell you to the people there, muahahaha". Okay. They drive us to machap for dinner. 

Food in machap is quite nice actually. At least I'm away from all the hustle and bustle of the city life for once in a blue moon. Anyway, talking about the price, I'm not sure bout how much they will charge the 10 of us for ordering 9 dishes and more than 10 bowl of rice. But I know it won't be cheap cz we even have 2 fishes among the dishes. So really, thank you for the meal guys. I know you guys had spent a lot on us. Then we head back to malacca, we went for karaoke session at Tango. Woots, then jia en told us that he couldn't celebrate our birthday with us, he said he is going to leave. Then when he really left us, angeline and I went in the karaoke room. 5 minutes later, jia en went in the karaoke room with a cake and present for us.  What a day. I've never be so happy. Thank you guys. Loves the swatch & the precious cake. 

Our group photos. We are forever buddies, some I've known them for more than 12 years and some is more than 5 years. Loves. 

This is the birthday present I got from them. Mint colour genuine leather swatch! Simple yet easy to match with my outfit. Thanks buddies. 

This is how it looks like on my hairy hands. Hehe.  

Last celebrations will goes to my lovely family members. Thanks mummy, daddy, kor kor for loving me unconditionally and care, tolerate me for this past beautiful 18 years. My life will not be completed without family. Well, too badly we did not take family potrait cz no one is going to capture our photo for us. Also, camera run down of batteries. So, all I can show is just my birthday cake photos.  

Before lighting up the candles. 

And the after lighting up my candles. Happy 19th. Sorry for the photography skills. Haha. 

Oh ya! Before I ended this, I would like to thanks mindy for surprising me with this birthday present too. Thank you for spending money on my birthday present. Stay sweet with Guo ming. :) 

So yeah? Here I should conclude my blog post. I have lots of delicious cakes, presents, and also blessing from all of my friends. Thank you once again for all the wishes, celebration, treats, presents, cakes. Hoping everyone of you happy healthy and wealthy forever. Loves. 

Til I see you again. :D

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Freedom. Joy. Happiness.

Oh hello bello. Back to blogging line here. Finals officially ended today, felt so much relieved and stress-free for now. Year 2 is hard and totally out of my imagination. Well, frankly speaking here. Never in my entire life knowing that we have to study when there are test. I know that we actually need to study for test like seriously when I was in form 1 or 2. Know why? Because when I first entered secondary school, my exam results totally crap. That's explain. But even when I know I have to study before exam this theory to achieve better results, still i stick to my "don't give a shit bout test" principles.

Yeah, I am a very lazy person. I hate studying dead thing. I love outdoor activities. If you were to lock me in a room with tons and tons of books, theory, notes, Ooops sorry. I'd rather sleep and bored til the moment I die. Not that I cannot study, but I refused to. So, that's a good proof why my test marks sucks. Haha.

Last time, before enrolling into mass communication course, I thought it will be easy. All you have to do is just talk. But after being a mass commers for the 2nd year, that was a wrong thought. Mass com require lots creativity, research, writing skills. Every sem of finals, test will be based on theory, essay writing skills, and understanding. Damn bored. I memorise almost everything just like my brain is going to explode at any time and splash fresh blood nerves everywhere.

If only we can chew and swallowed those notes into our body digestive system, then automatically those infinity words that can't be digested in immune system will flow to our brain memory, how awesome. Wait, it happened. In your dream.

You know, people always say there are no free meal in this world. If everything can be achieved without even working hard for it, then life must be boring and pointless. No point for living. Still, I hate studying. Boring.

Back to the finals topic. I have no idea when is the last time I had my 7-8 hour sleep. I know, not only me but everyone that are striving hard for finals out there don't really sleep. Even me, overnight at my college library to study. Never sleep whole day. Okay. I am a bit kiasu? It's like study is much more important than silly damn sleep. Sleeping is a waste of time when you are having finals. Just so you know, this is not a good idea. You see, we human need rest. At least have 3 hours sleep a day okay? (No logic, idk) All I know is, don't be over-stress and choose not to sleep for whole damn day. You might be ended up lying on the coffins any second. No joke. Don't try.

I just wanted to say, even if the results that will be releasing after our sem break,might turned out disappointment but remember how hard you've worked hard to achieve success. You did your best, so keep that spirit and just never give up fighting.

Alright, here to wish everyone especially Inti-ians a very Happy Sem Break. Remember work hard, play harder. Go get your ass out and released every stress you've encounter. Pamper yourself once in a blue moon, worth somehow. You deserves this.

Also, for all Muslims friend out there, early wishes from me. "Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri". Have a wonderful Raya. WOHOO. I miss ketupat, rending, lemang... Slurp.


Sisters group photo after our last finals paper. 👭👭👭👱

Dearest wency, wish you have a happy yet unforgettable graduation. Finally, you are graduating!!! May God bless you in your future undertaking. Love you, xoxo. 💋 don't forget anyone of us kay?

Views & Likes.

*Big Sigh*, why my course assignments usually require views and likes from the audience? I really wonder what is the purpose for people to view and like our video. Yes, maybe at some time we want our hard work to be paid off, so we want our video to be well-promoted. More people will get to see our video and hit the likes button. But, do you know that even sometimes we asked too much from other's help for like and views, people will feel annoyed? Even friends will think that, "Why most of the time you message me just because of likes and views for your assignments marks?" You know? That feeling of begging?

This time, my interview video, I don't PM any of my friends. Why? Because I don't dare to and I don't feel like doing so. I know myself well, if people pm me just for a likes and view to me, I will not hesitate to ignore. But, somehow I still promote it on my both Facebook account and also page. I think this is better, because people who really want to help you, they will click in the link and like it themselves. We don't have to keep forcing, people will not like it. Even they do, they just want you to shut your mouth after they like it. "No more favor, that's the last!" 

SEE! That's hard. Well, I have no choice but to promote it through my blog post as well. I really need this views and likes from you people. I know I am annoying, but I really don't use you when I needed you only. I will still return you a favor when you need me for a like and view assignment purposes. Who don't want marks for assignment? Right? Haha. Sorry guys, just hope everyone of you can help me. Thanks for the people who help me. Love you much, XOXO. 

Here's the link for my group member and my YouTube video.

That's the day where we went for an interview and this is our final video of the project.

We need your LIKES & VIEWS for assignments purposes. Share it if you want it. Thanks! :D

: amelia's group interview :)

Also, here's another one for our wordpress article.

Basically, that is an article about our lovely interviewee.

All you have to do is just click on the link below, and find the Facebook like button to feel free to gives us a thumbs up! Thank you once again! :D

: WordPress Link

Before I end this blog post, here is the link of my friend's new release YouTube video. It's a mixed song. So, please do listen and support him if you are a fans of mixed music. :D 

: Mixed Song. & his assignment link. Nesty's Group

Lovesss, May God Bless all of You. :D

My way of living ?

I know sometimes my words are pretty hurtful but you know what I don't mean it. Maybe I am more straightforward especially for the person I care or close with? If you do something that makes me dislike about you, I will just tell you what I dislike about you. The reasons is because I don't like hiding or lie-ing about something that is not even necessary. If I don't take you as my friend or buddies, I won't tell you how I think about you. Instead of telling the truth to hurt you, and desperately wanting you to change, I might just keep it for myself. Do you get my point? If I don't care about you, If I don't give a damn about how bad are you,what's my point telling you? Seek for an argument? Get more enemy?

So, yeah. 

I am straightforward for a reason. 

"What people see in you basically depending on the people you are interacting with."

I agree because as you read through the blog post I posted previously, I'm stubborn, hot-tempered, childish. I admit the fact that friends influence me a lot in life especially I have no family here with me, I need to depend most of my thing myself and also my friends. My 5 college mate which is also known as my college sisters and 2 ex-housemate, the friends I am now closest with. They are all matured. Even though they are only 18 and soon to be 19,20+. They are matured! When I say matured, it means physically and mentally matured. I don't know why. They don't quarrel for childish thing. They don't get angry for unnecessary thing. They will give you advice whenever you need. For examples, A and B quarrel. They don't support anyone of them, don't care whether who is the person they are closest or not so close to, don't care whether you are A or B but they will just provide you the best advice and it's up to you to came out with your own decision. When you get angry without proper reason or maybe the reason for you being angry is lame,they won't leave you alone or go mad with you, they will give you some time to chill your emotion then will approach and talk to you (if you feel like saying or else they won't force you.)

Let me tell you how horrible am I before who I am today. I can get angry for very tiny thing that happened in my life. You can call me MISS SENSITIVE. *HAHA* Well, at some point, I salute myself for changing some of my bad attitude. I don't think of changing my attitude. Seriously, I don't even thought of it. As days goes by, I can't deny the fact that I am a much more better person now. All we need is time. This morning, I was texting with a friend of mine. Since I did not attend my morning class, she told me what I have to do and what I've missed from that class.Maybe I am annoying for asking the same damn thing over and over again ?Then I started to notice, she was sort of irritable. IDK. I was so angry this morning. If I were the person I used to be last time, I will not care about you but to reply you, "wtf you want ?" , "why are you angry ? I am just asking anyway ? If you don't want to explain then fine, I will find someone else, you don't have to react this way", BUT I've change ! Wtf. I calm myself for 2-3 min then try to re-read the conversation. The next thing I reply her is "thank you for telling me". I did not get angry but I understand the reason of her being irritable. WHAT ? So, NOT me.

Next thing is complicated situation. Last time, no matter what situation or problem you are having, I will be the busy body girl giving negative or nasty comments OR If you have something unhappy going on in your life, I WANT TO KNOW. If you don't want to let me know, I will think a lot and start thinking what's the point for us being friend. Lame right ? I know. Now, I don't. I stay away from complicated situation especially when there are nothing related to me. I am tired. I tend to have the thinking, "If you want to tell me, automatically you will tell me. If you don't then I won't be forcing you with a gun". Most of the time now, I listen more than I comment. Why now so big difference, I have no idea.

My life move on with a big smile. :)

I started to think that I am changing into an old aunty that are getting rid of her teenage life. *finger-crossed*

Before I end my blog, I would like to thanks my fellow sisters for being nice,tolerate,patient. "The people that want you to be a part of their life, they will definitely make an effort on it." I am not a very good girl with the best attitude and personality, but I am willing to change for the person that concern about me. I will keep the memories that I've had in my past. Maybe GOD was right. If you never learn to let go, you will never know what you've missed in front of you. No point for keep looking back for the same person. No point keeping their soul but not their heart. No point being care for the people that keep wanting to put revenge on you. Thanks sisters. Without anyone of you, I will never cope every single thing that smooth and wise. Each and everyone of your effort, time, turning me into who I am now. Not even ego nor childish. My sincere appreciation to my fellow sisters, Anvale,Raini,Ning,Kheii,Eunice,Cassandra,Vivienne. *cheers*

To sisters,
"I may not be the greatest friend in the whole wide world, but I will shelter you whenever you need me".
-amelia's

Typical asian selfie. :O  

What-So-Ever

What's the point living in this world if you're not even happy or smiling ? What's the point living in this world if you are always living in the past ? What's the point living in this world if you keep commenting on others ? No point. Your life will be lifeless and full of haters. 

I'm glad for taking my first step leaving my past. Something may happen out of our predictions, so just bear with it. It happened, what can you do ? You can't turn back time, don't you ? 

Remember to not get mad when people are talking behind of you, everyone have their own mouth, whatever they feel like judging just let them be. Sometimes, it also mean my story is much more interesting than yours. Not a comforting sentence, just fact. As long as you know, you did nothing and there you are. You just won a battle. Learn not to care too much, because the more you care about someone, the more you'll feel sad. Moderate concern is fine.

Who don't make mistakes ? You dare to look into the mirror and held your head up high saying "yeah, I did nothing. I am real innocent always." Then, you are none other than a liar. Remember that even though today you did something bad by talking behind backs or writing unnecessary status,  the person you are talking might not know but others will know. Do you know what is  "The walls have ears" ? I doubt you know. 

Keep saying, keep judging, keep it up. You did a great job, woman. People don't fight back don't mean he/she don't care but is because he/she got nothing else to care about besides ignoring. Before ending my blog post, I would like to end up with my own quotes. 

If you keep looking back at your past, you will never know what good stuff you've missed ahead you. :) -amelia's

Live for your life, and the right people will stay for the original you. -amelia's

1st year anniversary.

So, here comes the ugly selfie of mine during lecture class this morning. I got a deal with my little princess ; I have to leave my fringe but NOT pinned up & wear skirts on her birthday. It's kind of weird and challenging for me because I usually pin up my hair and then match every t-shirts with a pair of long jeans. You know, *it's not like I am going shopping or seeking for boyfrieee*, I'm just too lazy to dress up myself. #simpleisthebest for me.

People in college used to call me a nerd which I am not even one. Just because I dress like I am a nerd doesn't mean I am a nerd. PLEASE. I don't want to crack my head thinking what to wear for today or tomorrow or the day after tomorrow, it's annoying. If I keep scratching my head, I will keep shopping for more clothes & pants which is not even necessary. 

Too much of crap, enough.

Today is my lovely princess birthday. Her name is anvale but I used to call her princess because she is just like a princess for me. Is that even counted ? Maybe. Today is her birthday and also the day we first started to know each other. How we both met ? During our gathering night at Asia Cafe. When I first met her last year on her birthday, she was crying and moodless. I remembered that I am trying to tell her "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" but she refused to even looked back at me & say thank you. *She IGNORED me*. Then, she walk off to 7-eleven to get herself an ice-cream then went back. Just like that, I have bad impression on her. 

The moment I started to know more about her, I noticed that she is not even the person I first met her. Meaning, not sociable and cool.  She is actually a very talkative, strong, understanding, smart, pretty, gorgeous, slim, tall, yet straight-forward girl. There were times we argue, hate each other then leave but somehow we still got back together. Why ? Because I assume that real friendship don't break either for rumours or gossips. 

Frankly, I don't noticed or take her as the most important people in college life previously but now I do. Whenever I did wrongly, she will correct me. Maybe her words will hurt me very deeply, but I will still accept it. Sometimes I feel guilty because I once hurt her but she is still here right by my side believing me, supporting me, never once give up on me. Thanks God for the 2nd chance. I can't tell how much I appreciate her but I just do. I am willing to accompany her whenever she needed me. Outsider will think that she is just using me but for me I do not agree. I cannot do much for her and all I can do is being a listener and accompany her when she desperately want me to. 

I don't know where to find a person for me to really appreciate him/her after a huge quarrel, misunderstanding and fight but now I've found her. Thanks for the things you've once done to me. You're right, you don't need to ask people to come back for you but when they started to realise how important are you, they will automatically go back to you, then start changing and stay permanently.

My college bro, the 1st guy I know in college- mingz. I don't care how sad or disappointed you are in me. I don't know what makes you change. I don't know what you've heard and know but all I want to say is I love you and appreciate you always when you're with me. Sometimes, I don't tell you my stuff but that doesn't mean I lost trust in you. It's just the matter that I don't feel like telling because I don't want you to be the one suffering always. You know, once I tell out my stuff then you'll try to crack you brain and think of a solution for me. I don't want to keep rely on you. You'll have your own hard time as well. You're the best in me, mingz. Stay happy. :')

When you started to be mad at a person, think of the good things she/he have done for you. You dare to look into the mirror and say that you got nothing to be sorry of when you are pissed ? Remember that everyone makes mistake but not everyone can learn and stand for their mistakes. 

Appreciate everyone around you before it's too late. 

Sometimes.

I bet everyone of you, included me, we need someone to talk to. We need to talk about the good & bad things we faced together. Just everything. You realised you have a lot of friends in life, but the person you can really talk to is just that one or two person. It's not about using them when you need them, it's about sharing good & bad stuff to you. There are differences. 

Sometimes, I faced difficulties in relationship and also friendship. I really need someone to be my listener and provide me with a better advice. I am a little bit childish and sometimes a hot-tempered girl. The people who know me should know that little part of me quite well. It's not about not changing my character, it's about being who I am and real. If I change myself to be someone which I don't belong to, then I don't think I am basically real but fake or maybe just acting ? 

I have no idea why during night time, automatically and definitely every sad stuff will come towards me. My past and also my present life that I've been through. We named this "emotional". It just happen. Is it just me thinking too much or just me being too lonely. Frankly, I should be thankful as I am surrounded by all the beautiful peoples that doesn't want me to faced everything by myself. I am a very fortunate yet lucky girl. Yes, I am sad. I posted on Facebook status saying "sometimes I want someone to talk to." Well, I don't expect neither likes nor comments. It's just something that I wanted to tell the people or friends on what I am thinking. I don't ask for sympathy, attention seeking or what-so-ever. Just someone to understand me is more than enough. 

After posting such status for 24 hours or more, I would like to thanks the people who commented on my status. It might be just a comment for u, but for me I am happy and thankful cz someone actually know and understand me. Some don't comment, but they private msg me on Facebook, Whatsapp, Wechat me. There are people who are younger than me are showing their cares and concern towards me, how come ? *shy, blushes* Not only younger but some I barely know them, they still spend their precious time private msg  me on Facebook. I don't expect this will be happening to me. Thank You once again.

Well, I don't stated out everything here to show off or something. I am just feeling thankful there are such nice people giving you the best support they could to make your rainy day a rainbow. I admit that I am that down that day, I really need a person to just listen and speak to me. I thought maybe just one person will make me fly, but there are even more. So, I am really just being blessed. God always send angel to protect us. 

When you are sad, you are welcome to find me too. I am always available for the people who needed me. Always. 

Sem break is over !!! Continue my college life tmr. Oh GOSH, I can't believe I've been in college life for a year and now is my 2nd year which is sem 4. Time flies. I've met my college friends for a year. Woo-hoo. *champagne, cheers* I'm gonna blog this on my next blog post. Please be excited, or act like you are. *finger crossed*. See you soon. :) 

Be happy and smile because you're just beautiful when you smile. :D

-amelia's-

Follow me up if you feel like doing so. :)

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Life move on.

I've been missing for so long. Almost a month or two. Yeah, time flies and now I am here back to my blogging life and was trying to annoyed & begging all of you to read my blog. So, what should I be emphasizing ? "Welcome to my life again."

-Boring,
...I know, you know, we know...-

I may not be the best girl in the whole wide world but won't be the worst too. I don't feel like writing today blog post but since I have so many things running around my mind recently, finally I made up my mind by posting and typing this blog post. Before I posted something on my blog, I will think twice and guess who will be the one reading my blog. Actually, I don't really mind who want to actually read my blog and give nasty comments on me. I mean in life, we are not perfect. So, I don't mind others discussing how sucks my english is or my blog post will be. If you don't feel like reading, just leave. Don't waste time doing things you don't even interested on.

First & foremost, I would like to thanks to all my readers, friends also people who actually supported me, follow my blog and been commenting on my post. I may not be famous, I may not be beautiful, I may not be writing a very good blog post but I will do my best. Whenever I am down, I write a lot. I am not good at expressing my feelings through telling people how miserable life can lead me to but I am good at writing it. God gave me a very good life, I have a very wonderful family & friends who treated me well and felt thankful for my existing in life. You know when you passed away or leave the world to heaven, the most impressive memory you'll be leaving behind is only the memories that you've built with them. I remembered the happiest moment and also the saddest moment in my 18 years of life living in this complicated world. I can't compete to the people elder than me by telling them I met more people than you do or I got more experience about humans behaviour more than you do.

Yes, I admit that I met a lot of people in my life and the people that once appear in my life that make me the most happiness girl on earth are now leaving me alone one by one. People come and go,the good one and also the bad one. Life is realistic, materialistic and also egoistic. When you met the real good friend, you don't know what is the word "appreciate". Until the moment they leave you, you then realise what is "appreciate" means.

I am a very childish, Immature and also stubborn girl. I admit every part of this. I don't deny the fact that I am this kind of  person. I don't think there are personality or attitude that are needed to be hidden to the people. What makes me know who I am ? Talk to your closest friends. All of my friends seen the best part of me and also the weakest and ridiculous part of me but still remains right besides me. I don't leave anyone, I talk to everyone. Yes I made mistake, but I admit on my mistakes. I tell the truth, whatever I did wrongly I admit it. I don't play twist and turn game, because it don't suite me. I hate people escaping from their mistakes because I will have that kind of thinking whereby "the more things you are trying to hide or lie on, the more people will get to find out." FYI, I hate liars and fcking hate liars. If I know you lied in front of me, I will never forget about it and I will totally lost trust on you. I will just keep myself in silence and leave. I don't have a very good attitude, but I am willing to accept everyone mistakes. I know the concept of  "people makes mistakes. As long as they are willing to change and face it they deserves a second chance."

Jealousy ? It's very common in this modern society. I am so dumb and naive, I never stop reminding myself this. God well-treated me, I know a lot of friends, I am good to most of the people. Just to simplified it, as long as you are good to me, I'll be treating you good as well but If you treated me bad, I'll still treat you good but just not that good any more. I always forget that when I am good to somebody, there'll be outsider or among friends who are jealous. I always have this perception going on my mind, when I am good to you, and I have a group of best friends, I will not hesitate to bring you in and join my gang of friends. For me, I want everyone to be good and be friends together but bad things always happened. It's either later on I will be the one being left out or I will be having misunderstanding by believing too much of rumours. I am not telling who is this person I am talking about, but I can tell that she is really important in my life. The night I listened to rumours and started this unnecessarily and childish arguments against her, she actually cry so hard. She is not crying because she is sad. She is crying that hard because she is so disappointed. I'd rather listen to what people tell me than trusting the real friendship relationship that we've built so hard between just the both of us. People around us can tell how close we were, we are like real sisters who owns the same parents and flowing the same blood. A lot of our friends actually jealous on our friendship too. Since, misunderstanding happened, we are awkward and obviously we barely speak. Just imagine, the closest person in your friendship life are leaving you. I regretted so much after I started the arguments with her. I beg her best friend, admitting my mistakes, learn to face my mistakes, swear that I will never want to be that childish any more. Of course, this takes times. If I am standing on where she is standing, I will feel the same disappointment too. Good to know, I woke up and gain something. Now, although we are getting closer back together but right by her side are accompanied by other friend. Which means, I used to be the closest friends to her and also the first person she trusted that much are now the second or maybe even worst or no rank in her heart.

This given me a very good lessons learned in life, learn to appreciate. God are good to me, they gives me all the goods and chances to be the first rank in people's heart but somehow because of my own attitude and ridiculous behaviour, I've lost the opportunity for keep being the first. Only once a number one then is either number 2 or no position in people's heart. I just want to tell you that, even though I will never ever be your number 1 again, but I will always rank you as my number 1 and no one can actually understand me more than you do. I was at least once on your hand phone wallpaper which makes me feel so proud. Whenever I face problems, I will still go for her. She is my listener and I feel comfortable if only she know my mistakes. I don't know, I just feel comfortable if she know what is happening in my life. No worries, God gave me the second chance and I will learn step by step what is "appreciation" real meaning.

Frankly, I knew a girl for almost a year and one ordinary sentence that came from her make my eyes wet. IKR, I am so easily be touched by small matters. She said "she love being friends with me and she'd rather be friend with me. Much more comfortable." She seen the bad side of me and even the good side of me, yet still telling me this. I am not trying to stated that people who praise me are good people and people who don't praise me are suckers or bad people. What I mean is, I don't think I worth people praising or rank me as their most important person. I will appreciate them and thanks for telling me that my existence are that important for them. I think a lot. I always think that I am the extra one but when I know there are actually people who think that I am important, I am happy. I mean, who don't ?

I messed up quite a number of things in life, I fixed several of them and some remains a mess. Now, I learn and slowly get to know about my life. Last time, I used to be unhappy and stubborn to keep thinking what's mine is mine. Yes, I hate people grab things that are supposed to be mine. I cry a lot and not even a day without thinking about this matter. Now, I've change. "The more I care, the more people are laughing behind of me ; The more I started to fall my tears, the more people are giving me an applause ; The more I stay, the more people will comments on you." What for make life such miserable ? We are the one that used to be the closest but don't know since when it begins we are not close any more. Why am I supposed to be the one always care about stuff that you guys don't even give a damn on ? Am I just a fool ?  I don't know what makes our friendship fade since we were strong at first, but I know that true friendship won't fade that easily. Real friendship are strong, no matter how people talk the negative side of you, real friend will stand out and support you also never choose to leave you of gossips. I don't know why my life got that much people jealous of who I am and trying to destroy every of my friendship but don't worry I am strong enough to face it although I am all alone with no one supporting me. I am alone, but at least I am real. I can see through my eyes and felt through the deep of my heart, who trusted gossips and leave me. I can see who knows about my gossips but still remains besides me. If you'd rather trust gossips more than our friendship, then you may leave. If you know about my gossips but still staying right beside of me, supporting me, trusting me, you are welcome to my life and thank you.

As I said always " I don't live my life for entertaining you, If you want to stay then just stay, If you want to leave then please do. I don't force people to be with me. " -amelia's

I don't expect or pleased anyone to treat me good, I just want you to be who you are and let me be the one who treated you good. So, you don't have to write or trying to give me hint by saying "people once treated you good and you expect more"  or "ask urself about why people come and go in ur life". Who is the real innocent, God knows. I believe me myself will get through all the ups and downs in life. Remember that God arrange it for a reasons.

朋友。

Today I'll be posting my blog in chinese. Sorry for people who don't really understand. You may ask your friends or family to translate for you or just google translate it. :)

朋友,可以有很多。小气的,可爱的,开朗的,心计的,直接的,傻傻的,天真的,善良的,八卦的,等。少了任何一个,日子都会有所改变。朋友与朋友之间,一定会有那么一个八卦的,心计的害全部人吵架。让朋友与朋友之间失去了信任,感情。有人可以因为一句道歉就原谅;有人会斤斤计较 ;有人会生气一辈子记仇; 有人总觉得自己没错; 有人可以因为这样然候想找别人诉苦,于是,事情不会解决反而更多人知道; 有人会找地方发泄,写状态。每个人都要不一样的方式去面对,解决问题。很多人一定责怪八卦的,为什么一定要说。我也一样。不说,什么事情都不会发生。可是,事情可以掩盖多久,又有谁会知道。可能今天不会是你说,改天别人一样会说。什么是秘密?只有自己懂。一旦说了出来,就不能说是秘密。

社会上,不会有十全十美的人,也不会有百分百胜利的人,其中一定会有1%失败,而那1%就是自己。无论你为人多善良,一定也会有小人想讲你很假,虚伪。无论你为人多差,也会有人说你奸。无论你是不是无辜的,解释永远都会是演示。这就是社会。

朋友就是如此的不简单。想说你认识的朋友,都没有吵架过吗?吵架了,就不会再是好朋友?我也有朋友,我敢说,每个朋友我都一定会不喜欢他的某些部分。可能认识时,觉得很要好,就做了判断,久了,埋怨了,就说他有多差,多奸。这都很正常。没有了吵架,感情怎么变好?日子怎么充实?不是一定要吵架日子才会充实,而是吵了,自己会更了解对方。到时,再判断他到底是不是你的朋友也不迟。不是每次错了,就觉得自己一定对,而是错了,自己能不能勇敢面对。朋友之间有问题了,要和好只能坦白。继续演下去,只会伤害自己更深。一人做事,一人当这道理,如果不是自己,谁来帮你扛?可能今天有人帮你,那你又知道何时,他会来害你?靠别人,不如靠自己。你可能觉得,他一直再帮你,可是却不知道暗地再害你。我只能说,唯有相信自己。错了,面对。

八卦,每个人都喜欢八卦。朋友之间一定也会八卦。八卦很正常。不是讨厌才八卦,是想提出自己的看法,再看看别人是否也这么想你。八卦不定是坏,是看你怎么想。我想说,如果不喜欢可以当面说,至少他懂了会改。他不会怪你。可能现在会,可是过后他会感激你。怎么说唯有朋友才能看清彼此的真面目。如果当他朋友,说出来,大家关系也会变很好。我自己很好的college sister也说过她很恨我,真的不知道怎么面对我,就觉得很不明白我,我们也吵架,有段时间都不说话,有距离,她宁可跟我全部的朋友说话,都不想跟我开口。谁不伤心?谁又会预料事情会变到那么复杂。现在说开了,我们还是朋友。我们更了解彼此的弱点,并且想办法包容。毕竟,你要当一个人为好朋友,不要只是说,要说到做到,尝试接受彼此的弱点。这样,你以后知道他是这样的一个人就尽量避免做出会造成伤害他的事。

朋友可以很多,好朋友就永远那几位。为什么好朋友永远不会比朋友多?因为不是每个人都能包容与接受被批评后的感受。总会觉得,你会批评我,你就不是我朋友。我不会原谅你因为你曾经是这样伤害了我。可是,你们都敢对良心说,你们都没批评过别人?既然彼此都不让路,只有2条路,继续朋友,继续仇人。就这样好朋友,变朋友。

不能说谁对谁错,只能看谁还在意。从别人口中的话相信一半就好,毕竟你不知道谁对,谁错。相信自己看到的,相信自己的眼睛,耳朵。自己想过怎样的生活,自己决定。别人控制不了你。可是没做过的事,自己不用怕。自己做过的事,不怕给人讲。谁对你好,不要用耳朵听到了就判断。自己问自己,为什么不相信那些被讲的?如果有哪天,你也一样被别人批评你是怎样的一个人,你不会伤心?在说别人的缺点,先看清自己有什么资格。朋友,不开心说了心里也更舒服。何必什么都隐藏,对不起自己。你可以诉苦,可是在诉苦之前,不要只说自己多委屈,多善良,多无辜,这只是自欺欺人的行为。不明白,问清楚,看清楚,再帮。很多感情分裂,就是因为朋友在诉苦时,说他多坏,可是自己多无辜,让被诉苦着觉得就算原本和他关系很好,也变了不好。这不叫诉苦,是心计。人在做,天在看。

我希望大家能和平相处。真正的好朋友,不会那么容易垮或被影响。一直责怪别人也不能给你什么帮助,当初说了就该预料这会发生。如我说,可能今天你不说,你也不会知道明天又会是谁不小心溜嘴说了。Remember the wall have ears. 不是我们懂的事情而已,是别人也知道。

这blog post没特别针对谁。只是想分享自己的经验与想法。如果读了,生气,还是想批评那我阻止不了你。我知道各人有各人的想法,你我也不例外。

Sem 3.

I wonder how time pass that fast. Dear time, don't you feel tired ? Everyday work and never even wanted to find an excuse for rest. So, here I am after a month of sem break and 1st week of sem 3 life. Should I be proud for being a Malaysian ? We got so many public holiday which I am always happy about. We don't need to wake up so early for class. Malaysia BOLEH, love you. ♡ In this 1st week of sem 3 I only attended class for 3 days because tues and fri are public holiday. I am not the kind of lazy pig sleep from dawn to dawn. I woke up at 10am for shopping with my fellow housemates last tuesday. When there are a public holiday for you to go for shopping, why do we need to stay at home facing our own wall or laptop or tv or handphone or whatever thing it is. Do not hesitate to go for shopping or a movie or a games. Walk much better than sitting at home dey. Walk can keep fit and burn your belly fats better than you just sitting and start building your belly fats right ? *just saying*. As this is the starting of our new sem, we got no assignments or presentation that bothering us which is why we should appreciate our time and spend it wisely before we go busy again. Some of my random housemates asked us whether wanna join them to Mid Valley or not, then I was like *why not face*.

It is actually a great moments and opportunity for us to gathered in a place like shopping together after a month not meeting and talking to each other face to face. We can build more relationship among each other instead of keep being awkward. One of my friend keep telling me how awkward she is when we are all together like how we used to be last time. She is the one who used to be the closest to them and now she said she feel so awkward facing them. I found that it is a true fact either. We used to stay and meet together everyday who knows because of the 1 month sem break, we are far apart and after a month meeting, we somehow got little bit strange again. Anyway, our shopping trip to Mid Valley is very fun and happy. I think I should be nominated as the clown and retarded woman of the day. I wonder why I laugh from the moment I left my hostel to mid valley and from mid valley back to my hostel. People who are staring so strangely at me seems to thought I just discharged from a mental hospital. Maybe I over reacted my happiness to them. If you know me in person you'll get to imagine how insane I am that day. *very embarrassing* but who cares, as long as I am happy and I laugh with my sincere heart not even fake.

I really love all my housemates. I love my sister, Mindy, yiqin, young wen. I love all my brothers, mingz, desmond, liangz, huanz, eric, yogenth, alex. They are my kl family and my best buddies. Even though there are time I am acting a childish girl and always be the picky one, thanks for all the consideration and toleration for giving me chances to grow. I can't said I am a more matured girl, but I am starting a new life for myself and trying to get rid of some bad attitude of mine. You know we only have this one chances in our life. If you still ruin it then I think you should just go get yourself in your room and start thinking what's your problem.

I wonder how miserable my life will be after 1 more year I graduated and we are all far apart back our own hometown. I will always love and miss you guys. Remember that life without all of you isn't a hundred person but 99.9%. I don't need any replacement for you guys because you guys are not replaceable and always got the unique rank in my heart. I appreciate every seconds, minutes, hours when I am with all of you. I might not show through action but in my heart I always do. We took a few selfieee. :D 

Basically, this is mindy & my #ootd 

Group photo with the girls and this random liangz come and photo bomb in our photo. :3

Left to Right.

Mindy, Me, Yiqin, Young Wen.

While waiting for KTM.

He is Charlie which I used to call him huanz. We came from the same hometown. It's much more better to have a friend to accompany you go and back KL always. Thanks GOD. All the while, I thought I will be so alone but til he came to the same college as I am, we used to go back malacca together. Thanks huanz ! 

My best brother, mingz and mindy and I. 

I don't know how to describe my love towards this photo. I simply fall for it.

Left to Right.

Desmond, mingz and I.

Both of them are my best brother. Desmond is my joker. He never fail to make me laugh like a retarded woman whenever I am communicating with him ; Mingz know me very well and he is always there for me whenever I am feeling down. He used to be the one holding tissue wiping away all my pain and tears. Thanks God, I found both of them. My life never be more complete without them. 

Group photo. :D

Group photo with all my housemates !!! 

TPH ROCK THE WORLD !!! :D

Sem 3 will be another suffering sem for all of us. One of the reason is because we are currently taking short sem and we are rushing for all of our assignments, presentations, finals. We have to work and struggle really hard in order to achieve a good results. Although I just attended my 1st public speaking class, next week onwards we will be starting our presentation. We have to start dressing formal and prepare our 3 min speech. I don't hope much for myself, I hope I can do my best and achieve what I want to achieve. Good Luck for everyone !!! Never study hard, but study smart. :D ♡ Live you life, never give up !