1st year anniversary.

So, here comes the ugly selfie of mine during lecture class this morning. I got a deal with my little princess ; I have to leave my fringe but NOT pinned up & wear skirts on her birthday. It's kind of weird and challenging for me because I usually pin up my hair and then match every t-shirts with a pair of long jeans. You know, *it's not like I am going shopping or seeking for boyfrieee*, I'm just too lazy to dress up myself. #simpleisthebest for me.

People in college used to call me a nerd which I am not even one. Just because I dress like I am a nerd doesn't mean I am a nerd. PLEASE. I don't want to crack my head thinking what to wear for today or tomorrow or the day after tomorrow, it's annoying. If I keep scratching my head, I will keep shopping for more clothes & pants which is not even necessary. 

Too much of crap, enough.

Today is my lovely princess birthday. Her name is anvale but I used to call her princess because she is just like a princess for me. Is that even counted ? Maybe. Today is her birthday and also the day we first started to know each other. How we both met ? During our gathering night at Asia Cafe. When I first met her last year on her birthday, she was crying and moodless. I remembered that I am trying to tell her "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" but she refused to even looked back at me & say thank you. *She IGNORED me*. Then, she walk off to 7-eleven to get herself an ice-cream then went back. Just like that, I have bad impression on her. 

The moment I started to know more about her, I noticed that she is not even the person I first met her. Meaning, not sociable and cool.  She is actually a very talkative, strong, understanding, smart, pretty, gorgeous, slim, tall, yet straight-forward girl. There were times we argue, hate each other then leave but somehow we still got back together. Why ? Because I assume that real friendship don't break either for rumours or gossips. 

Frankly, I don't noticed or take her as the most important people in college life previously but now I do. Whenever I did wrongly, she will correct me. Maybe her words will hurt me very deeply, but I will still accept it. Sometimes I feel guilty because I once hurt her but she is still here right by my side believing me, supporting me, never once give up on me. Thanks God for the 2nd chance. I can't tell how much I appreciate her but I just do. I am willing to accompany her whenever she needed me. Outsider will think that she is just using me but for me I do not agree. I cannot do much for her and all I can do is being a listener and accompany her when she desperately want me to. 

I don't know where to find a person for me to really appreciate him/her after a huge quarrel, misunderstanding and fight but now I've found her. Thanks for the things you've once done to me. You're right, you don't need to ask people to come back for you but when they started to realise how important are you, they will automatically go back to you, then start changing and stay permanently.

My college bro, the 1st guy I know in college- mingz. I don't care how sad or disappointed you are in me. I don't know what makes you change. I don't know what you've heard and know but all I want to say is I love you and appreciate you always when you're with me. Sometimes, I don't tell you my stuff but that doesn't mean I lost trust in you. It's just the matter that I don't feel like telling because I don't want you to be the one suffering always. You know, once I tell out my stuff then you'll try to crack you brain and think of a solution for me. I don't want to keep rely on you. You'll have your own hard time as well. You're the best in me, mingz. Stay happy. :')

When you started to be mad at a person, think of the good things she/he have done for you. You dare to look into the mirror and say that you got nothing to be sorry of when you are pissed ? Remember that everyone makes mistake but not everyone can learn and stand for their mistakes. 

Appreciate everyone around you before it's too late.